Conrad Aiken

Conrad Potter Aiken was an American writer and poet.

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• Walk with me world, upon my right hand walk,
  speak to me Babel, that I may strive to assemble
  of all these syllables a single word
  before the purpose of speech is gone.
  • "This image or another"

• Separate we come, and separate we go, And this be it known, is all that we know.
  • Self written obituary in verse.

Chance Meetings

• In the mazes of loitering people, the watchful and furtive,
  The shadows of tree-trunks and shadows of leaves,
  In the drowse of the sunlight, among the low voices,
  I suddenly face you

• I love you, what star do you live on?

• And the shadows of tree-trunks and shadows of leaves
  Interlace with low voices and footsteps and sunlight
  To divide us forever.

Discordants

• Music I heard with you was more than music,
  And bread I broke with you was more than bread;
  Now that I am without you, all is desolate;
  All that was once so beautiful is dead.

• My heart has become as hard as a city street,
  The horses trample upon it, it sings like iron,
  All day long and all night long they beat,
  They ring like the hooves of time.

• My heart is torn with the sound of raucous voices,
  They shout from the slums, from the streets, from the crowded places,
  And tunes from the hurdy-gurdy that coldly rejoices
  Shoot arrows into my heart.

• O sweet clean earth, from whom the green blade cometh!
  When we are dead, my best belovèd and I,
  Close well above us, that we may rest forever,
  Sending up grass and blossoms to the sky.

All Lovely Things

• All lovely things will have an ending,
  All lovely things will fade and die,
  And youth, that's now so bravely spending,
  Will beg a penny by and by.

• Come back, true love! Sweet youth, return!—
  But time goes on, and will, unheeding,
  Though hands will reach, and eyes will yearn,
  And the wild days set true hearts bleeding.

The House of Dust (1916 - 1917)

• The wandering one, the inquisitive dreamer of dreams,
  The eternal asker of answers, stands in the street,
  And lifts his palms for the first cold ghost of rain.

• 'I will ask them all, I will ask them all their dreams,
  I will hold my light above them and seek their faces.
  I will hear them whisper, invisible in their veins . . .'
  The eternal asker of answers becomes as the darkness,
  Or as a wind blown over a myriad forest,
  Or as the numberless voices of long-drawn rains.

• We flow, we descend, we turn . . . and the eternal dreamer
  Moves among us like light, like evening air . . .

• Our hands are hot and raw with the stones we have laid,
  We have built a tower of stone high into the sky,
  We have built a city of towers.

• What did we build it for? Was it all a dream? . . .
  Ghostly above us in lamplight the towers gleam . . .
  And after a while they will fall to dust and rain;
  Or else we will tear them down with impatient hands;
  And hew rock out of the earth, and build them again.

• There, in the high bright window he dreams, and sees
  What we are blind to,—we who mass and crowd
  From wall to wall in the darkening of a cloud.

• Before him, numberless lovers smiled and talked.
  And death was observed with sudden cries,
  And birth with laughter and pain.
  And the trees grew taller and blacker against the skies
  And night came down again.

• From high black walls, gleaming vaguely with rain,
  Each yellow light looked down like a golden eye.
  They trembled from coign to coign, and tower to tower,
  Along high terraces quicker than dream they flew.
  And some of them steadily glowed, and some soon vanished,
  And some strange shadows threw.

• From some, the light was scarcely more than a gloom:
  From some, a dazzling desire.

• And there was one, beneath black eaves, who thought,
  Combing with lifted arms her golden hair,
  Of the lover who hurried towards her through the night;
  And there was one who dreamed of a sudden death
  As she blew out her light.

• We were all born of flesh, in a flare of pain,
  We do not remember the red roots whence we rose,
  But we know that we rose and walked, that after a while
  We shall lie down again.

• One of us sings in the street, and we listen to him;
  The words ring over us like vague bells of sorrow.
  He sings of a house he lived in long ago.
  It is strange; this house of dust was the house I lived in;
  The house you lived in, the house that all of us know.

• And we recall, with a gleaming stab of sadness,
  Vaguely and incoherently, some dream
  Of a world we came from, a world of sun-blue hills . . .
  A black wood whispers around us, green eyes gleam;
  Someone cries in the forest, and someone kills.

• And, growing tired, we turn aside at last,
  Remember our secret selves, seek out our towers,
  Lay weary hands on the banisters, and climb;
  Climbing, each, to his little four-square dream
  Of love or lust or beauty or death or crime.

• Over the darkened city, the city of towers,
  The city of a thousand gates,
  Over the gleaming terraced roofs, the huddled towers,
  Over a somnolent whisper of loves and hates,
  The slow wind flows, drearily streams and falls,
  With a mournful sound down rain-dark walls.

• A chorus of elfin voices blowing about me
  Weaves to a babel of sound. Each cries a secret.
  I run among them, reach out vain hands, and drown.

• 'I am the one who stood beside you and smiled,
  Thinking your face so strangely young . . . '
  'I am the one who loved you but did not dare.'

• 'I am the one you saw to-day, who fell
  Senseless before you, hearing a certain bell:
  A bell that broke great memories in my brain.'
  'I am the one who passed unnoticed before you,
  Invisible, in a cloud of secret pain.'

• Weave, weave, weave, you streaks of rain!
  I am dissolved and woven again...
  Thousands of faces rise and vanish before me.
  Thousands of voices weave in the rain.

• My veins are afire with music,
  Her eyes have kissed me, my body is turned to light;
  I shall dream to her secret heart tonight...

• 'I bound her to me in all soft ways,
  I bound her to me in a net of days,
  Yet now she has gone in silence and said no word.
  How can we face these dazzling things, I ask you?
  There is no use: we cry: and are not heard.

• The wind shrieks, the wind grieves;
  It dashes the leaves on walls, it whirls then again;
  And the enormous sleeper vaguely and stupidly dreams
  And desires to stir, to resist a ghost of pain.

• We reach vague-gesturing hands, we lift our heads,
  Hear sounds far off,—and dream, with quivering breath,
  Our curious separate ways through life and death.

• We rub the darkness from our eyes,
  And face our thousand devious secret mornings . . .
  And do not see how the pale mist, slowly ascending,
  Shaped by the sun, shines like a white-robed dreamer
  Compassionate over our towers bending.

• Each gleaming point of light is like a seed
  Dilating swiftly to coiling fires.
  Each cloud becomes a rapidly dimming face,
  Each hurrying face records its strange desires.

• More towers must yet be built—more towers destroyed—
  Great rocks hoisted in air;
  And he must seek his bread in high pale sunlight
  With gulls about him, and clouds just over his eyes . . .
  And so he did not mention his dream of falling
  But drank his coffee in silence, and heard in his ears
  That horrible whistle of wind, and felt his breath
  Sucked out of him, and saw the tower flash by
  And the small tree swell beneath him . . .
  He patted his boy on the head, and kissed his wife,
  Looked quickly around the room, to remember it,—
  And so went out . . . For once, he forgot his pail.

• Something had changed—but it was not the street—
  The street was just the same—it was himself.

• He would not yield, he thought, and walk more slowly,
  As if he knew for certain he walked to death:
  But with his usual pace,—deliberate, firm,
  Looking about him calmly, watching the world,
  Taking his ease . . .

• Was forty, then, too old for work like this?
  Why should it be? He'd never been afraid—
  His eye was sure, his hand was steady . . .
  But dreams had meanings.

• His thoughts were blown and scattered like leaves;
  He thought of the pail . . . Why, then, was it forgotten?
  Because he would not need it?

• I walk in a cloud of wonder; I am glad.
  I mingle among the crowds; my heart is pounding;
  You do not guess the adventure I have had! . . .
  Yet you, too, all have had your dark adventures,
  Your sudden adventures, or strange, or sweet . . .
  My peril goes out from me, is blown among you.
  We loiter, dreaming together, along the street.

• Lovers walk in the noontime by that fountain.
  Pigeons dip their beaks to drink from the water.
  And soon the pond must freeze.

• Time is a dream, he thinks, a destroying dream;
  It lays great cities in dust, it fills the seas;
  It covers the face of beauty, and tumbles walls.
  Where was the woman he loved? Where was his youth?
  Where was the dream that burned his brain like fire?
  Even a dream grows grey at last and falls.

• Death is a meeting place of sea and sea.

• Two lovers, here at the corner, by the steeple,
  Two lovers blow together like music blowing:
  And the crowd dissolves about them like a sea.
  Recurring waves of sound break vaguely about them,
  They drift from wall to wall, from tree to tree.

• 'One white rose . . . or is it pink, to-day?'
  They pause and smile, not caring what they say,
  If only they may talk.
  The crowd flows past them like dividing waters.
  Dreaming they stand, dreaming they walk.

• Two lovers move in the crowd like a link of music,
  We press upon them, we hold them, and let them pass;
  A chord of music strikes us and straight we tremble;
  We tremble like wind-blown grass.

• What was this dream we had, a dream of music,
  Music that rose from the opening earth like magic
  And shook its beauty upon us and died away?
  The long cold streets extend once more before us.
  The red sun drops, the walls grow grey.

• The days, the nights, flow one by one above us,
  The hours go silently over our lifted faces,
  We are like dreamers who walk beneath a sea.
  Beneath high walls we flow in the sun together.
  We sleep, we wake, we laugh, we pursue, we flee.

• The young boy whistles, hurrying down the street,
  The young girl hums beneath her breath.
  One goes out to beauty, and does not know it.
  And one goes out to death.

• In one room, silently, lover looks upon lover,
  And thinks the air is fire.

• As darkness falls
  The walls grow luminous and warm, the walls
  Tremble and glow with the lives within them moving,
  Moving like music, secret and rich and warm.
  How shall we live tonight? Where shall we turn?
  To what new light or darkness yearn?
  A thousand winding stairs lead down before us;
  And one by one in myriads we descend
  By lamplit flowered walls, long balustrades,
  Through half-lit halls which reach no end.

• The poet walked alone in a cold late rain,
  And thought his grief was like the crying of sea-birds;
  For his lover was dead, he never would love again.

• 'When you are dead your spirit will find my spirit,
  And then we shall die no more.'

• Through soundless labyrinths of dream you pass,
  Through many doors to the one door of all.
  Soon as it's opened we shall hear a music:
  Or see a skeleton fall . . .

• Let us retrace our steps: I have deceived you:
  Nothing is here I could not frankly tell you:
  No hint of guilt, or faithlessness, or threat.
  Dreams—they are madness. Staring eyes—illusion.
  Let us return, hear music, and forget . . .

• Of what she said to me that night—no matter.
  The strange thing came next day.
  My brain was full of music—something she played me—;
  I couldn't remember it all, but phrases of it
  Wreathed and wreathed among faint memories,
  Seeking for something, trying to tell me something,
  Urging to restlessness: verging on grief.
  I tried to play the tune, from memory,—
  But memory failed: the chords and discords climbed
  And found no resolution—only hung there,
  And left me morbid . . . Where, then, had I heard it? . . .

• You know, without my telling you, how sometimes
  A word or name eludes you, and you seek it
  Through running ghosts of shadow,—leaping at it,
  Lying in wait for it to spring upon it,
  Spreading faint snares for it of sense or sound:
  Until, of a sudden, as if in a phantom forest,
  You hear it, see it flash among the branches,
  And scarcely knowing how, suddenly have it—
  Well, it was so I followed down this music,
  Glimpsing a face in darkness, hearing a cry,
  Remembering days forgotten, moods exhausted,
  Corners in sunlight, puddles reflecting stars—

• The music ends. The screen grows dark. We hurry
  To go our devious secret ways, forgetting
  Those many lives . . . We loved, we laughed, we killed,
  We danced in fire, we drowned in a whirl of sea-waves.
  The flutes are stilled, and a thousand dreams are stilled.

• Once I loved, and she I loved was darkened.
  Again I loved, and love itself was darkened.
  Vainly we follow the circle of shadowy days.
  The screen at last grows dark, the flutes are silent.
  The doors of night are closed. We go our ways.

Preludes for Memnon (1935)

Preludes for Memnon; or, Preludes to Attitude

• Let us describe the evening as it is:—
  The stars disposed in heaven as they are:
  Verlaine and Shakspere rotting, where they rot,
  Rimbaud remembered, and too soon forgot;
  Order in all things, logic in the dark;
  Arrangement in the atom and the spark;
  Time in the heart and sequence in the brain—
  Such as destroyed Rimbaud and fooled Verlaine.
  And let us then take godhead by the neck—
  And strangle it, and with it, rhetoric.